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ACCEPTANCE: that bitch.
Wednesday, May 16, 2001, Age 19 I think…no…I can’t even start this right. Ugh. I can’t say that I hate my parents…I don’t. But if I had to pinpoint the one thing I hated most about them, I think it’s how they pretend to be wealthy. To this day, I still haven’t figured out if…
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BOBBY: could somebody teach me how to date without getting cold feet?
Sunday, November 26, 2000, Age 19 Okay, so I haven’t written for awhile but something very very bad has happened and Jen isn’t here to tell, which if she was here I wouldn’t have done it, so damn her! No just kidding, but what happened was tonight Jared and Bobby and Jes and I smoked…
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MENTAL ILLNESS: Sexual Assault, Suicidal Ideation and Eating Disorders, oh my!
NOTE: I will not be correctly diagnosed with my primary condition until the age of 26, with numerous additional conditions following from there. Tuesday, August 1, 2000, Age 19 Did you ever think about swallowing a bottle of pills just to see what would happen? Or how about slitting your wrists, just lit-tle cuts, but…
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SOCIOECONOMICS ;0D
And, of course, social struggles… Monday, July 31, 2000, Age 19 Hi. I have nothing to wear tomorrow. Was it really me who thought it would be a good idea to sell most of my clothes (for a fraction of their actual cost) so that I could ‘start over’ with a new and better wardrobe?…
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SAYING GOODBYE: losing my grip on past lives.
Tuesday, July 4, 2000, Age 19 Hey yo Happy 4th of July. Okay, so I am so proud of myself. I am going through my address book and writing letters to everyone I miss and love! I did seven tonight and like nine a couple of days ago so I’m doing pretty well. I like…