And, of course, social struggles…

Monday, July 31, 2000, Age 19

Hi.  I have nothing to wear tomorrow.  Was it really me who thought it would be a good idea to sell most of my clothes (for a fraction of their actual cost) so that I could ‘start over’ with a new and better wardrobe? I don’t think I quite realized how very few items of clothing I was leaving myself with.  Hmm?  Oh well, not much to do about it now.

Mom informed us today that she accidentally overdrew like $400 out of her checking account.  She had money in the bank to cover it, so we’re not in trouble or anything like that, but she was very embarrassed and I felt bad.  I also felt bad still feeling like I need money for school from her.  I don’t know I just, I don’t know.  Never mind.

So I don’t know why but I am sometimes lately getting a little irritated with Jen.  She’s all “I don’t know what to wear”, “I don’t know what boy to go out with”, “I don’t know what party to go to”, blah blah blah and sometimes it’s just like shut the hell up, ya know?  I know I’m just annoyed because I have no life right now in Minnesota and because she does and is having fun and shit.  I don’t know.  I’m just annoyed with everything right now.  I feel like I want to scream and rip my fucking skin off you know, because I feel so frustrated and annoyed and not in the mood to share cars and get up at six fucking am.  

But what can you do?  The parents don’t have money growing on trees so I gotta grow my own ya know!?  Ugh.  Nite.