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INTERNALIZED FAMILIAL SHAME: born this way, and misdiagnosed by the age of 20.
Thursday, December 27, 2001, Age 20 Well, today I started using Paxil, an anti-depressant that hopefully will help me out a little bit in all sorts of ways. I’m kind of excited. I really do hope it helps because I think that is exactly what I need. My father is in an uproar right now…
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SOCIAL STRUGGLES: returning depression.
Saturday, August 25, 2001, Age 20 Well, I am now all moved in at school for my junior year. It is kind of hard to tell what it will be like. I suppose I shouldn’t even try to predict it because I can’t really control any of that shit anyways. Hmm? Well anyways…I can’t decide…
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SOCIOLOGICAL PROGRAMMING: making up my own mind (a.k.a. be *careful* what you WISH for ;0)
Sunday, July 30, 2000, Age 19 So much to say, so much to say! Okay, so this appearance thing is really becoming quite the irritating issue these days! I have this on-going fight going on within my conscience with one side wanting to be rail thin, but then there is the other side that just…