Friday, November 2, 2001, Age 20

Well, it’s a little lonely here tonight.  It’s Friday and none of my friends are anywhere to be found, which sucks, but is okay because I have a ton of work to get done.  Shit here has been getting pretty annoying.  I am really ready for Thanksgiving.  I mean, I had a great time on Wednesday night for Halloween, but I dunno, shit here is just so annoying sometimes.  You know, just the people and the same places over and over and over again!  I might try’n get out to North Canton sometime soon, maybe before Thanksgiving.  It won’t be long though!  Only two more weeks and then the semester will be over before I know it!  Scary!

I’ve been thinking about Dave.  Just a lit-tle sometimes.  I wonder whether I’ll ever see him again.  Sometimes I wonder if we’ll ever date again.  Sometimes, I wonder if he loved me.  I wish I knew what he thought about me.  I wish I knew if love at first sight is something that is real and can really happen…and if it is, can it happen when you’re twelve years old?  I wish I knew if he knew back then, too.  I wish I knew if he ever thought about me or remembered me.  I hope someday I will feel like I could measure up to him…even if we never do meet again.  I dunno.