Tuesday, July 4, 2000, Age 19

Hey yo Happy 4^th of July.  Okay, so I am so proud of myself.  I am going through my address book and writing letters to everyone I miss and love!  I did seven tonight and like nine a couple of days ago so I’m doing pretty well.  I like it though because it gives me something to do with myself and hopefully I’ll hear back from some of these people!  It’s kind of sad sometimes because there are so many people that I miss so much and love like Shelley D. and Michele F. that I haven’t talked to in forever and it makes me sad!

Ohhh!  Listen to this.  I felt sooo bad today, I was writing Jen an email and I said something like I didn’t like it here at all in Minnesota and my fam was driving me crazy and my dad came in and read it!  I feel awful!  And it’s not like I even really meant it either, you know?!  It’s just that Jen is the person I vent to!  She’s my roommate for god’s sake; the girl’s like a sister to me.  I miss her so much.  You know who I also miss a lot?  My Stacey!  I think I’ll call her soon to say hi.  I hope I never lose touch with her!  I love that girl!

Okay, so I never told anyone this, but I have this fear of calling people I haven’t talked to in a long time because I fear the part where I have to be like, ‘I have to go,’ because I never know what to say.  Hah!  How weird am I?  But it’s the truth!  Anyways…moving on.

I’m also sad because Stacey and I were planning to hang out today because it’s the 4^th of July and she was going to fly out here to visit me.  I kind of knew it wasn’t going to happen because it was so last minute, but it still makes me a lit-tle sad.  Last year on the 4^th of July Stac and I went camping w/Brian.  Aaahhhh!  I can’t believe that was already a year ago!  My god I feel like my life is passing by me right before my eyes!  I better be crazy and all me and just fucking enjoy it, you know?!

Okay, but This Christmas/N’Sync shit is playing and I have to go turn it off cause it’s killin’ me how bad it is ‘n shit.  Hah!  See, I don’t know how to say goodbyes!  Gotta work on that!